Yay!

As of today, I have finished my prelims for the year! The last ever high school prelims! I am very glad about that due to the fact that I hate prelims. Ce qui m'enerve is that they don't even count prelims as an appeal any more so if you do badly on the day of the exam and fail, but get, say, an A in the prelim, it doesn't matter, you'll still fail. How annoying is that?! "Very" is the answer you're looking for. So that's them done and they went a lot better than last year so hopefully my results will be pleasing because I worked hard.

I had my interview yesterday at university and it was nerve-racking. I was the last interview of the day so I saw people going in, waiting, excited and nervous chatter, silence as they walked out and another was called in. I could only keep my adrenaline going for so long so there was a point where I started to really look forward to it. Eventually, it came to my turn and I walked in where a man and a woman were sat motionless and expressionless. I was as cheery as possible, smiled and tried not to get tongue tied. It went well. Although, the more I think about it, the more things I wish I had time to say but each person was allocated only 15 minutes. I made a portfolio which was a lot of work and time to put together. It included all my work experience, research, essays, assignments and references from the teachers I was working with and my guidance teacher. However, I was not able to show it to them which was frustrating but hopefully I'll have another chance to show my portfolio in another interview.

I didn't realise before hand but I was told that 2,000 people had applied for the Primary Education course and only 600 people where chosen for the interview. I was one of the 600 people! I feel so happy and so lucky to be chosen because that university has a very good reputation for Primary Education. I have no idea how my interview went in comparison to anyone else's because I wasn't with them obviously so I just have to wait. Again. I am concerned that I will have nowhere to go. If that is the case then I will get a job and go to college, maybe do some volunteering, something good for the soul. I'll figure it out.

I had a great time and I traveled with my boyfriend as he had an interview and the same place and the same time for Computing Science. He really enjoyed his day and got an unconditional which is fantastic news. I am so so happy for him. He deserves it. He has a place at university, a place no matter what. Now that he has that security I have noticed a more relaxed him. I knew that not knowing the verdict from any of the universities that he has applied to, was bothering him even though he was not showing it but I could tell. It was like he was holding his breath for so long and now he's let go of a huge sigh of anticipation and I am thrilled for him.

I have not heard back from any of the universities yet and so I am still on edge but I just have to wait and now that my prelims are over I now feel much more relaxed. The interview could have gone a lot worse and I didn't mess up. I told them as much as I could and told them of my experience and why I would be good as a teacher and why they should choose me. There are so many things that I wish I said and could have said differently. However, it's done now and there's no point in doing that.

It was a great experience and even from that I feel more confident and I made a few really lovely friends whilst I was there and I hope they get in to Primary Education too.

A New Year has begun!

Before you know it, it is 2012! The beginning of the new year for me was uneventful but productive and exciting. I visited my grandparents with my Aunt and Uncle and my cousins on New Year's Day and it was lovely to see my family as I don't get to see them much. There are so many of us in such a small room but that makes it all the better. The next day, I began to study properly for my prelims. I have a totally different mindset towards study this year in comparison to last year. Last year was hellish. I was stressed out my mind and overloading myself that it became completely counter-productive. This miraculous change of mind is all thanks to my boyfriend. I think I'd be the same if I was not with him. 

Since I've been with my boyfriend, I have spent all my free time with him and I confess that I have not spent time with my other friends as much. The fact that we are all soon to be going our different ways, makes me feel even more guilty. Since we are on holiday, I took the chance to spend time with them and we all had a lovely time and I really appreciate who they all are as people as I have become much more aware of that recently. I am very lucky. 

We were then greeted by a 4-day power cut which made me realise how much time I spend on electrical appliances - especially the computer. The days were longer and much more productive with my revision and I got a lot done around the house managed to maintain my tidiness in my bedroom a lot better than I usually do. I really enjoyed the time with no power but the fact that the days get so dark so early at this time of year, I had to strain my eyes with the flickering oil lamps and candles doing maths revision. At night, it was darker inside than it was outside and I could lie on the living room floor upstairs and look at the starry skies - it was so peaceful and silent. 

The final day, I went to the dentist and went shopping to buy a gift for a friend and arrived home to find the power had come on and an envelop on the door mat... it was from a university, my first reply. I seriously thought it was a letter of rejection because as time has gone on from sending my application, I have thought more and more that I just would simply not get a place... anywhere. However, when I opened the envelope and read it, I discovered that I have been invited for an interview! Oh my goodness! An interview! I am very excited. Coincidentally, my boyfriend has an interview for the same university, on the same day and for the same time! We've decided to travel there together. What am I going to wear?!

This year is going to be mental. It's going to whiz past - just like last year. There is going to be a lot of change and I can't wait for the new experiences and the lessons I learn, the mistakes that I make. By September, I could be living somewhere completely different. If we go to the same university, my boyfriend and I have decided to live with each other. Now, that is exciting and my idea of bliss.