I remember my last day of Primary School. The Headteacher personally gave us a £5 book voucher for Borders. It said "good luck for the next chapter of your life!" and a smiley face. Here I am now, just about to finish that chapter of high school. Soon I will be lucky enough to start the next chapter. The 7 years of primary school seemed to pass instantly and high school is so much more intensive and that I have been there for ages. Weeks, however, go passed at a scarily fast rate. It's a constant buzz of work, socialising and fitting in every possible other activity in our ability. I'm proud to say that I have nearly completed the maximum of schooling I can possibly do. And I really do enjoy it.
I am looking forward to the change of scene. I have lived in the same place in the countryside since the day I arrived on this planet. Going to university and living in a city will definitely be very different and being able to walk out the front door and go down to the shops when you've remembered that you need a new pack of pens (black, of course) then you can do just that. Getting something like a new pack of pens where I live is such a faff and a half. I would have to wait until my mother returned home from work - which is always late - let her breathe when she comes in the door and announce that I need a pack of pens which might not be able to be in my hands until the weekend which is when the weekly shop happeneds. I know this is a very trivial thing and it's hardly worth complaining about but just to put it in to perspective that the simplest of things need to be organised in advance and repeatedly. Living in the city will be brilliant for me as I do like a bit of hustle and bustle.
One thing is that I will miss home a lot. My family, my neighbours, the clear, fresh air and the wide open spaces of endless hectares of land and crops to run about in... ride my bike with no hands and sing at the top of my lungs whilst walking the dogs without shame. Although, there was this one time where I made a group of farm workers extremely amused. Better than frowning! It was embarrassing, very embarrassing. So, I will do my best to visit home often. It's a strange thought. I don't know where I will be living. I now have 3 offers for University which is very surprising to say the least. I was absolutely not expecting any offers from anywhere. They are all conditionals and all the same condition of a B at any one of my Highers.
In Easter, I am possibly going skiing with my boyfriend and his family which I really hope goes ahead. I have always wanted to go skiing and to spend the week with my boyfriend and his family would be brilliant. I love his family. I am so lucky that I feel really guilty! Genuinely. I say to myself, "this is really happening to me?", "why is this happening to me? I mean, I know I have never done anything particularly bad apart from the time I bit my little sister on the leg when I was aged 2 and out of jealousy of something but how have I managed to be living such an amazing life?". I am and will be forever grateful for my life up till now even if from now on it seriously goes down hill because I would die happy now if that happened to be the case.
Babble babble babble... I apologize.
Over and out.
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