Getting back into it...and staying into it

Well I can't tell you exactly how long it's been since I had an exercise routine but I can tell you that it's been ages. As I write this, my arms are shaking because I've just done my ceremonial first workout. It was Level 1 of Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred. It was tough but I feel good now that I have done it. I remember doing it before and thinking it was very manageable. That's a distant memory now. I'm going to keep a journal - this being one outlet - to keep track of what I have done and when. I'm not going on a diet because I eat not too bad already and I don't want to be restrictive of my eating because I get too restrictive. 

I don't know how much I weigh, but like the diet, I am not going to weigh myself because my mindset gets unhealthy and obsessive. So what I will do is go by how I feel and what I see. That's good enough for me. I enjoy Jillian's workouts because there's no bullshit - it's straight to the point and she kicks your butt. I know the workouts work for me and the results a relatively quick. I remember one summer, I found the workouts on YouTube and did it 3-4 times a week as well as running and that transformed my body. For me now it's not summer and I can't see myself running with the colder weather and darker nights. Jillian's workouts will do.  One thing I do find difficult is keeping it going, making exercise sustainable. It's either all or nothing with me. I am either a fitness fanatic with an 8 pack (I actually did at one stage) or a couch potato and exercise doesn't even come into my radar. The latter has been me for the last year and a half or something crazy like that.

What have done with my eating is making it more varied. I do have a tendency to eat the same things and be quite uncreative with food. I do know that the more I exercise the better I eat anyway. It's like my body knows what it needs a lot better when I use it more!

My aims just now are to feel stronger and to look stronger. I am wanting more toned arms and stomach and the rest of my body will follow on from that incidentally anyway. For now, I think I'll try to do Level 1 workout twice a week for a while and see how it goes. I just need to keep my motivation up! I'm not really sure how to though!